why do i keep going back to think about him.
all the possibilities and probabilities run through my mind endlessly.
treat it as im too undaring to try.
treat it as im too crippled,too afraid.
i cant even handle myself well.what right do i have.what do i really deserve.
i thought i had it over.but the heart rules over the mind ultimately,out of my control.
im avoiding him,and i would like to keep it that way,even though i know it's nuts.
oh well.may as well.for the benefit of myself.just take it that im a selfish freak.
ignoring him.but he doesnt really care about me either does he.
ha.im indulging too much in my thoughts.let's go on to academics.
haha.guess what.im screwed.and i dont wanna talk much about it.
i have changed over the past few weeks in terms of my attitude,body language,physique,temperament etc
this is a bad sign.
everybody is sleeping late nights but i sleep promptly at 11pm every night after watching TV shows every night.haven't started much.i blew it.blew my 6 weeks of my planning schedule away.
now that's 2 weeks left.i better make full use of it.
it's not i cannot do it.it's up to me whether i want it to.
tf rocks (: gonna get her a pressie after prelims.haha yesteday's incident was funny.
oh yea teacher's day is coming.time to shower our beloved teachers with gifts.
wonder if 4g is going back to rv.
mugging is an activity i detest. ):
